Tuesday, July 31, 2012

5 months, is a big deal!

So I'm a little behind with the whole monthly updates on my kid thing, so far behind in fact, it's NEVER happened.  To be honest, there hasn't been a whole lot to report on.  She was 2 months premature, and so like my BFF said once "it's like having a newborn for 4 months" oh how right she was/is!  Madison is just now becoming more and more entertaining.  I mean she has always had her own little personality, since day one.  But now, oh NOW we see some good stuff.

*She is still sleeping through the night!  She got that one down after about 3 weeks home!  (I'm spoiled I    know, but hey a schedule is one good thing to come from the 5 weeks in the NICU ok?)

*She is starting to roll over, in fact just today she was so mad because she couldn't get all the way over from her back to her tummy.  She threw a royal fit.  I thought about helping her, but how's she ever gonna learn if Momma helps her every time.  She eventually got onto her side, and promptly gave up and fell asleep.  

*She can turn around in a circle on her back.  Slowly inching her way around, with her head in the same spot.  It's quite funny to lay her down on the floor, and watch her become more mobile. 

*She loves to be bounced on the bed.   Tyler found this out by accident one day (at Lagoon in my Dads' trailer) she was being a fussy butt, so Tyler gently bounced the bed around her.  She LOVED it!  She will smile with her whole face, till it looks like it must hurt.  

* Her nicknames are as follows:  Mads, Stinker butt, Pretty Girl, Little Lady, and Monkey.  Monkey is a pretty popular one.  Because she was so early, she was covered in peach fuzz like hair, and her Aunt Sherri lovingly started calling her Monkey, and it stuck.  

*She loves to chew on anything cloth.  If she can get her hands on it, it's in her mouth.  If she can get a hold of her clothes, they will be drenched in slobber.  

*She is discovering her slobber now too.  Oh what fun it is!  She will suck her bottom lip in, then push it out along with copious amounts of slobber.  And repeat again and again.  

*She is still in her bassinet, although we have taken out the lounger thingy, it was to high and she would be curled up in the bottom by morning.  She spends time in the crib during the day, but still isn't a fan of sleeping in it.

*She has laughed a couple of times, I have only heard it a couple of times, but her Daddy can make her do it all the time.    

*She is a totally Daddies girl.  She loves to just hang out with Tyler.  When she's with him, she must be held, sat next to him.  And in general just be near him.  It's cute. 

It's so fun to watch my little girl grow up.  She is now a hefty 10 lbs 13 oz, 23 inch long. All I wanted when she was in the NICU was for her to grow and get big, now that she is big(er) all I want is for her to stay little.  

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Long Road. Part 2.

So on February 9, 2011, my mother-in-law took me to the Taylorsville insta-care for my headache.  We went in around 9 in the morning.  I thought the wait would be short considering they had only been open for about an hour.  Well I guess they were waiting for another doctor to start his shift, so they were running a lot slower then normal.  They wait ended up being about an hour.  When I finally got back to see the doctor he asked me a bunch of standard questions.  When did the pain start? How far along are you?  Where does it hurt? Ect.  They also took my blood pressure, and noticed that it was a little high.  So they ordered a urinalysis, to check the amount of protein in my urine.  They also drew some blood.  After wait about 45 minutes for the test results to come back, I finally had some news.  They didn't know why I had such a bad headache.  So I got a prescription for the pain, and one for the nausea I was having BECAUSE of the pain.  I was prescribed codeine for the pain.  I was relieved to be able to take something stronger then just Tylenol.

So Cheryl and I went on our way, and filled the prescriptions, and I went home with high hopes of some pain relief and sleep.  But that was not to happen.  I took the codeine and all it really did was knock me out for about 2 hours, it didn't take away the pain.  So when I woke up from my drug induced sleep I was stuck for another 2 hours before I could take more.  That day I called Tyler at work crying, and asked him if he would please come home.  I didn't like being home alone, and in so much pain.  I needed someone to comfort me.  I don't remember much else about that day, just that I was in pain and wanted it to stop.  I spent that night in and out of sleep, I also spent a good amount of time crying, and ringing my hangs again.

I called out at work again the next day, and called my doctor to tell her about this headache that was going on for 2 days now.  After some convincing Tyler got me to go see a physical therapist.  The thought behind that was that I may have tweaked my neck and just needed an adjustment.  After that appointment I was actually feeling much better.  My headache had started to subsided and life was looking up for me.  Now I know WHY the headache started to go away.  I was relaxed while I was at the physical therapist office, thus bringing my blood pressure down, which alleviated the pain.

When Tyler got home from work we went out to dinner (Subway)  and then we were going to go to Wal-Mart to get a stroller car seat combo that I had seen on sale earlier that week.  After dinner my headache was back so we started our trek home.  While we were in the car my doctor called me back.  I told her about my head and that I was still in pain.  So she prescribed some loratab so that I could get some relief.  Then told me to come in to her office first thing in the morning to get my blood pressure checked.  I said I could stop in on my way to work.  I didn't think it would end up being a big deal.  Just stop in for 15 minutes, and then off to work I would go.  (Oh how wrong I was).  I remember that night before I went to bed, I was sitting on the couch, I looked up at Tyler and said,"have you ever had a feeling that something isn't ok?  Well I feel like this headache is something more." (oh how right I was).

That night I actually got quite a big of sleep, the loratab worked wonders and Tyler bought some rice packs at Walgreens so the heat and the pills made for a great sleep.  When I woke up (2/10), I was still in pain, but it really wasn't as bad as it had been.  So I decided it was time to go back to work.   I didn't want to use up all of my sick time on a silly headache.  I had plans to use it when Madison finally made her appearance.  I remember I put on my black pants, and my purple work shirt.  I took a rice pack with me, and I was out the door at 8:00.  I really wasn't worried while I was driving to the doctors.  I had no prior knowledge of pre-eclamcsia and didn't know there was reason to worry.

When I got to the office, I was taken back into a room as soon as I got there.  The nurse took my blood pressure, and the called my doctor.  It was really high.  I can't remember how high it was anymore.  The nurse came back and told me that Dr. Onieda told me to go over to Alta View Hospital (where I planned to have Madison) and go to labor and delivery.  I was officially worried then.  I didn't know what was going on.  So I said ok.  And as I walked back to my car I called Tyler crying.  I told him what happened, and then told him I was going to go get him and then we would go to the hospital together.  He asked if I wanted to meet him there, and I said no.  I didn't want to go alone.  I was too freaked out to drive from Bluffdale, where Tyler works, up to Alta View Hospital.  So Tyler drove me, while I sat and worried.  Tyler tried to make me feel better, but I was really scared.  I had no idea what was about to happen.

When we finally arrived the nurses where waiting for me.  They took me back into a room, and gave me a gown.  Hooked me up to fetal monitors and a blood pressure machine then we waited.  When someone came back, they told us they want us to stay for at least 24 hours, to do a urine collection.  There was a high count of protein in my urine so they wanted to get a better look at it.  So that was okay.  We could handle 24 hours.  So I sent Tyler home to gather up an overnight bag.  He also went back to his work to get his car.  He didn't want to leave it in the parking lot over night.  While he was gone, I was told that the doctors wanted to do an ultra sound on the baby that day, to see how she was doing.  Tyler was only gone for about and hour and a half.  I asked if they could wait for Tyler to get back so that he could go with me.  But as I was asking, he walked back into the room.  So off we went to get an ultra sound.  I now know that it was fetal monitoring.  After having one a day while I was in IMC, looking back I can recognize it for what it was.  When they were done, the tech said it looked like she was doing pretty good, and sent us on our way.

Once back in the room, my Doctor came to check on me.  She told us that I had abnormally high blood pressure, and that she needed to consult with another doctor to form a plan for what to do.  Nothing she really said, made me think anything was seriously wrong.  I still thought we'd be out by the next afternoon.  My head wasn't hurting as bad, and things seemed to be getting better.  I'm not sure how long it was but eventually another doctor came in, and told us we needed to transfer to another hospital.  At this point thing kind of started to blur together.  And happen so quickly.

My dad and step-mom where there, although I can't really remember when they showed up.  I know I called my sister and my mom, although I can't really remember when.  The doctor started talking about pre-eclamsica and high blood pressure.  And that they baby could die, that I could die, or have seizures a stroke.  And that the baby would probably be delivered that night.  So we had to go to Intermountain Medical Center.  They had/have a better facility for premature babies then Alta View does.  Everything was kind of a blur.  A nurse came in and started an IV for the Magnesium drip, and gave me my first dose of the beta-methasone shot, to help speed up Madisons lung development.  Then they told us I had to be transferred via ambulance and someone wanted to put in a catheter.  Finally Tyler told everyone to stop.  He wanted to talk to MY doctor and figure out what was going on.  Everything was happening so quickly.  One minute we were in for 24 hour evaluation, and the next he's being told his wife and daughter might die.  We weren't really sure what to think.  So my doctor called and told him that I really did need to go to IMC.  And after going around a few more times, we said we were ready to go.  So Tyler packed up our stuff, and a nurse put in a catheter.  Then we waited for the ambulance.  I tried to be strong, but I was in such a daze, I wasn't really sure what was going on.  The ambulance drivers showed up, they were good guys.  They made me feel at ease and made me a Tyler laugh a little.  So Tyler gave me a kiss good bye and they wheeled me out to the ambulance.

The next time I saw him, I was surrounded by doctors getting vitals and asking questions.  I didn't even know what time it was.  It was dark, I know that much.  But it was the middle of February so it could have been early afternoon.

I can't write anymore right now.  All of the memories and emotions are a little intense right now.  So in a few days I'll pick it up again.  But I need to organize my thoughts.  And maybe not write so late at night.  Emotions always seem to be closer to the surface at night.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

We Blessed My Blessing.

Well it only took almost 5 months, but today we finally did it!  We blessed Madison at church today!  We've been waiting to do it.  At first it was because she was just too small.  We were told to wait about 3 months to have her around a lot of people.  We waited about 4 months.  Originally we wanted to do the blessing outside of church.  I thought doing it at a park or stake center with a pavilion would have been fun.  Do it in the morning and have a BBQ afterward.  But the weekend we wanted to do it wasn't good for my family to get up here from St. George.  And then our bishop suggested we do it at home, and on a Sunday, not Saturday.  I was a little bummed at first.  I had this idea in my head about how I wanted to do this, and we wasn't going as planned.  But eventually Tyler and I decided we could do it on a Sunday, but we would still do it at home.  Then we found out we would have to wait until after 2 in the afternoon, if we wanted to bless her at home.  Know that, we decided to bless her in church.

Now I love the ward we are in.  I don't know a whole lot of people, but everyone is very nice to us.  I just have one issue, and it's really my problem not anyone else.  They ladies in the ward seem to play musical babies.  All the babies seem to be in someone elses' arms by the end of church, and often on the other side of the room.  It always made me a little nervous.  I just don't like the idea of everyone holding my child.  So I was afraid that if we did the blessing at church people would want to hold her.  And I mean who wouldn't?  She's so cute.  But I'm just not quite ready to expose her to a whole lot of germs.  So it was a little hard for me to consent to doing the blessing at church.  But today went really well.  We were surrounded by family, and the only people that approached us from the ward, were the few people that I actually talk to on a regular basis.  And we were able to make a quick exit to discourage too many people from stopping us.

This morning I was running around like a crazy person.  I got most of the prep work done last night.  Setting the chairs out, and organizing things how I wanted them.  But this morning I had to cut up some huge Costco muffins into quarters so that people could have a couple different flavors.  Then I decided to make a couple of frattas.  And then I realized I didn't have ice, or cups for the drinks.  So I made a mad dash over to Reams.  On top of this I had to get ready, and get Madison ready.  Madison was a good little girl this morning.  She slept until 8.  Tyler had to wake her up so feed her.  When Madison is woken up she tends to be in a better mood.  I think it's because we have a bottle ready, and she doesn't have to scream while we get her food ready :)  Tyler had her feed and burped by the time I got home from Reams.  When I got home I took her from Tyler, snuggled a little and then got her dressed.

I LOVE her little dress.  We got it at the Church Distribution Center after searching for a couple of weeks.  She looked so pretty in it.  She seemed to like it too, so much she tried to eat it while I was getting her dressed.  She looked so sweet and innocent (which she is of course).

Just before it was time to go, I told Tyler to rearrange our cars so that his car would be in the driveway, we needed a little more parking space on the street.  Well he came back in and told me we had to take his car because mine had a flat :(  So instead of putting the car seat base in his car we opted to just walk.  Our church is a half a block away and for the first time ever we were actually ready in time to walk.  It was a  nice cool morning, just made for walking.  Madison was wide awake and really seemed to enjoy the walk.

When we got to the church we were greeted by my Grandparents from Cedar City, and my Uncle Brett.  All from my Moms side.  I was happy to see them.  We were only about 10 minutes early, which was plenty.  Tyler did a great job with the blessing, and Madison was a good girl, not making a peep.  She even opened her eyes when Tyler held her up.  She woke up during the meeting, and started to cry for some food.  But other then that she was a little angle.  My grandma held her for about 20 minutes and rocked her to sleep.  Grandmas can do that you know?

I am so glad she didn't poop while she was in her dress.  I hear stories (my niece did it) of babies having blow outs in their pretty white clothes.  But not my baby!

I really think she enjoyed this day.  I know I did.

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